Worst Case Scenario

Again it has been so long since I have been on here.  So much has happened in the time I was away.
I had to travel away from my husband for some amount of time.  Which has been really hard.  I have been away for 3 months now.  I returned to the United States with the intention of spending time with my daughters and working some custody issues out with my ex.

It was a very hard decision.  I didn't want to go.  I mean, I really didn't want to go.  I begged and begged Wael not to make me.  It isn't that I didn't want to see my girls, I just had concerns about our plans and what was going to happen without him.  And it wasn't that Wael was doing it because he didn't love me or want to be with me.  He did it for me, and for our girls.  Those girls are just as much his as they are mine and we made them a promise.

So it was decided in September that I would go back to the United States for some time, alone.

I left home early in the morning of September the 29th, 2014.  Mama cried, Wallah cried.  I cried a lot.  The hardest part came when I was in the airport and Wael and I were talking on our phones through the glass window, hand to hand on the window, and he told me I better go so I could check through security.  I had to take my hand away from that glass, turn my back on my soul mate, and walk away.  I will never forget that feeling as long as I live.

I sat in the terminal waiting for my connecting flight to Doha talking to him as much as I could on the phone and over viber.  Looking at a city I would miss, at a people and a lifestyle I came to love.  Wishing I could just leave and never return without him.

Cairo International Airport

But as parents sometimes we have to make hard decisions for the best of our children.  While we may be 6000 miles away from each other, Wael and I are still together.  We always will be.  In everything we do.  Until we are together again.

Sunrise over Newfoundland October 30th, 2014

And then I finally got to see my babies again, after a long 11 months away.

It was worth it in the end, but it has been 3+ long months without Wael and it looks like it will be at least another 2 months before we are reunited, inshallah.  I'm hurting, he's hurting.  But we are strong, the strongest couple I have ever known.