Moving to Dearborn sounded so romantic. Just leaving the obsessive bad thing in my life behind and staring over again. Getting to start new. But it has dawned on my that by being slightly introverted and moving to an area where I know ONE person can be lonely. Its not like there is a place for a 30 year old Muslimah to hang out.
Top that off left my little loves behind. The three reasons I breathe. The three beautiful amazing little girls I have loved and cared for, never been away from for more than two days in their entire lives... Now they're far away. It kills me. But until things cool down, and their dad regains his sanity, this is better for now.
Leaving a place where I was the only Muslim amongst my christian friends and feeling alone to moving to a place where I am surrounded by Muslims but having absolutely no connection to anyone here is complete irony.
What holds me together is the fact that I know time does progress. No matter how fast or slow we perceive time it moves at a constant pace and always has. It is occupying ones mind with thoughts other than the waiting and loneliness that give us the perception that time is actually moving faster.
So, instead of sitting here thinking about how lonely I am without him... It's time to motivate and make something of my life.
Top that off left my little loves behind. The three reasons I breathe. The three beautiful amazing little girls I have loved and cared for, never been away from for more than two days in their entire lives... Now they're far away. It kills me. But until things cool down, and their dad regains his sanity, this is better for now.
Leaving a place where I was the only Muslim amongst my christian friends and feeling alone to moving to a place where I am surrounded by Muslims but having absolutely no connection to anyone here is complete irony.
What holds me together is the fact that I know time does progress. No matter how fast or slow we perceive time it moves at a constant pace and always has. It is occupying ones mind with thoughts other than the waiting and loneliness that give us the perception that time is actually moving faster.
So, instead of sitting here thinking about how lonely I am without him... It's time to motivate and make something of my life.
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